511. At Luna's wedding, the whole of the front row of seats was reserved for apparently no one. Harry went up to her at the end of the service. "Luna, who was meant to sit there?" Luna turned her glassy eyes on him. "Oh, they did sit there. In a spiritual way, I suppose," she said. She pointed out the seats one by one. "Right. That one's for my mother, those are for your parents because I think I would have liked them, that one is for Sirius, the one next to that is for Professor Lupin - they were friends, weren't they? - and that's for Tonks, then Fred Weasley, then Mad-Eye, then Professor Dumbledore, then Professor Snape. I hope they liked the wedding." She smiled and waved into what was seemingly empty space, before prancing off into the crowds. Harry had never felt so touched before.
I was being psycho and self-deprecating about it for days. I even got an upset stomach because of stress. After hours of talking myself out of it, and even confessing to someone who’s been in a similar situation, I still felt like utter shit.
Then I saw that Dumbledore quote. I thought about how he would react if I were to tell him. I realized he’d probably tell me to forgive myself because we all make mistakes—it doesn’t matter what kind or to what extent. We can’t change it, and sometimes there’s no way to make it better or make it go away, but we can always forgive ourselves.