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Things I like:

The Social Network, BBC Sherlock, Supernatural, Glee, Avatar: The Last Airbender, Pokemon, Naruto, Ookiku Furikabutte, The Avengers, Disney, Harry Potter, Sherlock Holmes, Aitsu no Daihonmei, The Amazing Spiderman, The Hunger Games

People I adore:

These Lovely Ladies, Andrew Garfield, Jennifer Lawrence, Scarlett Johansson, Misha Collins, Jesse Eisenberg

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Important Things! | Signal Boostin'!

dammit i did the assignment wrong

oh well, i like it, so i may as well put it somewhere

the instructions were:

Write a short narrative of a romantic beginning or ending. This text should be at least 7 sentences long and may run up to 10 sentences in length. (Approximately 125-50 words.)

but oops i didn’t make sentences or make it a beginning or ending

For every toddler that’s given a kiss under the slide; for the kids that scribble hearts and teens that whisper affection; for each person that’s had their heart stolen, or broken, or filled in with clay; for the ones that stay together for decades, and for the ones that don’t; and especially for those that never see it (be it out of choice, spite, or lack). We all know, at least once in our lives, that the love story is not feeling it intensely just once, or a little for quite a while.

The greatest love story is simply being there.

I was messing around with FaceGen to get my characters out of my head. Kade (left) turned out very close to how I imagined him, but Chris… Good lord, what is that thing.

This is the first page I’ve managed to make of Transatlanticism. I never felt like it was working as a novel, so I tried making it a script to see if it’d work. But I DON’T KNOW, DOES IT READ FINE?

EXT. JAMISON APARTMENT BUILDINGS - DAWN

Two apartment buildings, the exact duplicate of one another, stand grey and bleak in early morning fog. In the background we hear rundown cars starting and a few dogs barking.

CUT TO:

INT. JAMISON APARTMENT BUILDINGS/ROOM 118

The apartment is barely big enough to live in. The kitchen and living room are combined, and the bedroom and bathroom are pitiful as well. There is one curtainless window overlooking the other apartment building. Despite there being dishes in the sink and clothes on the floor, there are almost no decorations in sight.

In the bedroom there is a young man sleeping.

KADE is 17 years old and has black, curly hair. He appears to live alone, but his room is tidy besides the previously mentioned clothes and dishes. His bedroom consists of a bed, a night stand, and a disfigured lamp. There’s no room for anything else.

Suddenly, KADE’S eyes snap open. He turns his head after a moment of blank staring and grabs a watch that sits by his head.

THE WATCH READS: 7:15AM

KADE stands and prepares himself a simple breakfast of cereal and milk. He sits and eats it silently at his small table.

He DRESSES and grabs his backpack. As he grabs for the doorknob we see his wrist. There’s a sleek METAL BAND there.

IT READS: R-29078

It seems conspicuous enough, but upon seeing it, KADE narrows his eyes meanly, the first prominent show of emotion we’ve seen from him.

He PULLS DOWN HIS SLEEVE over it so we no longer see it.

oh gosh i’ve been going about writing this all wrong

it was totally meant to be a script, guys, not a novel

IT LOOKS SO NICE AGHSDJKASNDL;

that batman post/quote had me thinking of one of my “villains”

his dad was always teaching him to protect people, to uphold justice, save the weak and the damned and all that. but then, of course, his dad is murdered. Eric is traumatized, and does everything in his power to work his way to a position of power so that no one ever has to go through losing someone again.

He succeeds, no one in his city is ever killed or taken away from their loved ones for a prolonged period of time (he makes this exception for Roslyn, who also has family issues), but he doesn’t realize that some things are worse than death, and eventually becomes a tyrant. People are tortured/lobotomized/etc, returned to their families, and then he sees things as fixed as long as they don’t hurt anyone else.

Now I want to write yet another AU with Chris and Kade, where Chris is looking after an old house in/around Britain (after the owner dies mysteriously), and slowly comes to accept that he’s being haunted in the process. So he tries to get help from Kade (the son), who’s only 17, and can’t inherit the house until he turns 18. He also never leaves the house, which leads Chris to discover that Kade is the one haunting him.

(Fun fact: I’ve had this idea for years, and it was originally supposed to be a Sasuke/Naruto fanfiction. Just the haunting part, though.)

I imagine my character, Reed, had a bit of a gay crisis when he realized he was attracted to Sage (who has no assigned gender, and simply doesn’t identify as either gender in some universes). But, upon realizing he had never really cared about being attracted to anyone else, anyway, decided it wasn’t like he gave a shit anyway. So he just decides to not care about what he finds under Sage’s undergarments if they ever do get together.

This is the cover I made for the short-story I’m writing. It’s based in a world where ‘science’ has developed a way to categorize people into learning groups. A-class people (white) all the way down to R-class (red). From the moment they determine this, it will in turn determine your job, income, education, and worth.

Kade is an R-class citizen looking for a way out. Chris is a B-class citizen that doesn’t know he wants out.

“Mm, that was great,” the woman mumbles from the hallway. There was a thump, then sucking sounds, and Kade tries hard not to bite a hole through his cheek.

“Yeah,” Chris replies, sounding breathless and surprised. Kade wants to make that happen. He wants to put his hands around Chris’s neck and make it happen that way.

I feel like a loser crying over my own characters, but this is just really hard for me to write. Kade doesn’t let himself hate people. He hates that his country is messed up, he hates that the people in it are even more so. But he doesn’t hate individual people because he knows they’re just conditioned to act the way they do. So that he actually hates Chris—the one person that he doesn’t want to hate—is messing him up.

And Chris is just being a straight-up dick. A scared dick with reasons, but a dick nonetheless.

I HATE MY CHARACTERS SO MUCH SOB

This is why he tries to ignore people, because lack of recognition means he doesn’t have to focus his attention. He’s the type of person that, if he had bothered to remember even one lasting detail about someone, like a name, would end up compiling a list of whatever he knew about them in his mind whenever he saw them. Sally; female; likes coffee mugs and hand sanitizer; shoved me in the seventh grade for allegedly staring at her tits. It also means he doesn’t have to notice his own faults, or become aware that a majority of his classmates are going to end up his bosses the rest of his life if they end up staying in the same town. Sally will become a head nurse or maybe a doctor at a local clinic and be very successful. Or that’s what he would assume if he had known her name. Instead, she becomes a nameless figure walking through the halls.

So when he’s still staring at the back of the guy’s head, and someone yells “Chris!” like the annoying fuckbag they are, and “Chris” turns his attention to them, of course Kade is going to remember that. And so the list begins.

Chris; male; doesn’t use hair product, but has perfect hair; unknown variety of sarcasm.

I tried to tone down Kade’s obvious mancrush. It got worse. asdfghjkl;

lol you can skip this. I just want to categorize my characters right now and I’m too lazy to find a pencil.

Kade - Chris-sexual, Asian/White, encyclopedias

Chris - thinks he’s heterosexual, White/blond, indie rock

Lua - heterosexual, ginger queen, marbles

Quinn - heterosexual, Black/Indian I guess?, Lua

Roslyn - heterosexual, idek, her hubby

Sage - bi-romantic asexual, White, walking through cool creeks

Janine - pansexual, Black, her crossbow

Reed - not specified, Asian, he doesn’t like Sage anything okay

Nia - heterosexual, White/brown hair, trees

Damon - homosexual, not specified, sleeping

Caro - not specified, not specified, killing things

Anne - not specified but obviously not straight, White, screwing with people

Erik - married to his job/taking over the world, i don’t even, justice

Jeremy - heterosexual, White/blond, stalking Nia

X-Posted to LiveJournal!

I know a lot of you aren’t familiar with or won’t care about my OCs, but I’d really like to compile a list of the songs that helped shape/create these characters and their stories/personalities. So, here we are, grouped by timeline! You may even find some cool new songs to add to your own playlist. :D

Kade & Chris’ Timeline:
OMG by Usher - Kade. This is the song that created him. It’s just…really weird fitting now, BUT THIS IS WHO HE WAS ONCE UPON A TIME. Although his boner for Chris is still stupidly obvious.
I’m Still Here by John Rzeznik - And this is the song that reshaped Kade, and what helped me understand his and Chris’ relationship more thoroughly.
Keeping Me Alive by The Afters - Kade and Chris, because in literal and figurative terms, this is them.
Strange and Beautiful by Aqualung - Because Kade is a pining idiot, even if he doesn’t realize it.
Howl by Florence + the Machine - Chris. While Chris brings out the best in Kade, Kade ends up doing the exact opposite for Chris.
Headlock by Imogen Heap - Lua and Quinn. Lua is extremely ambitious, and Quinn understands this. Eventually, he makes a decision to help Lua via Roslyn. When he does, Lua only notices he looks half dead half the time.

Sage’s Timeline:
Rabbit Heart by Florence + the Machine - Sage. Sage is a very passive character looking for answers, and is reluctant to take action when they find what they’re looking for. Then they meet Janine, who is loyal and bases her entire being on being brave for her village, and Reed, who thinks the only person worth protecting is himself.

Nia’s Timeline:
Ordinary World by Red - Nia. More of an atmospheric thing than anything. But I guess all she wants for herself is an “ordinary world” outside of the one she’s forced into and the one she was born in. She’s partnered (reluctantly) with Damon and Caro by Anne, who’s kind of a Cheshire Car character mixed with the White Queen.
Nature of Inviting by IAMX - Damon and Caro. I love you, I hate you. Badasses in lovehate with each other.
Follow Me Down by 3OH!3 - Anne. XD; OBVIOUS REFERENCE IS OBVIOUS.
The Black Parade by My Chemical Romance - Erik has good intentions, he really does, because this is his train of thought. He’s the antagonist.
Take Me Out by Franz Ferdinand - Jeremy. All it took were the first few lyrics for this hectic, weird SOB to pop in my head.

 And then for all three of these ‘verses:
 
This is Halloween by Marilyn Manson - If I were an artist, I would be animating all of my characters into a fandom mash to this song.

Last night I was trying to sleep, but it wouldn’t work because I was narrating a really ~emotionally important~ scene in my AU. And I just. Started crying because Kade has always felt like he was alone. He was the only one that understood (lol being purposefully vague because I don’t want to spoil), and even when he meets Chris and he’s, like, stupid and awesome and sexy, he still just Does Not Get It. And then he does. And Kade doesn’t know what to do with all his feelings so he just kind of breaks down pffft. So then Chris freaks out and then spooning happens.

Stupid emotionally stunted characters and their stupid actions. Why can’t you be perfect like Janine and Sage?